'Other' People In Affairs Are Sharing Why They Did It, What Happened In The End, And How They Feel Now

'An affair is all-consuming. It’s all you think about, it’s an addiction. I knew it was wrong — but my need was stronger than that knowledge. So was his.'

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'An affair is all-consuming. It’s all you think about, it’s an addiction. I knew it was wrong — but my need was stronger than that knowledge. So was his.'

'An affair is all-consuming. It’s all you think about, it’s an addiction. I knew it was wrong — but my need was stronger than that knowledge. So was his.'

1."I’d been divorced for 10 years and was not interested in dating until my kids were up and out, but I really missed sex. A friend from a co-ed team started flirting with me and being suggestive. In the beginning, it was just a lot of sexting. He’s truly a good guy, and he’s in a very happy 20+ year marriage. I know his wife, and she’s great. He just has a much higher sex drive than she does. So he was missing the one thing I wanted — we filled a need the other had. He’d never cheated before, and, the first time we had sex, he felt so guilty. He really wished he could ask his wife for permission. For two years, we’ve been on-again, off-again. The chemistry and comfort level with each other is insane. It’s by far the best sex of each of our lives, but his guilt and shame have been so hard on him."

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"After the last time we had sex, he said he felt like an addict and asked for my help to stop. That changed things for me. I’m not in love with him, but I love him so I’m helping him (even though I still want to have sex with him!) by not flirting or initiating.

We are wonderful friends and see each other all the time. We care about each other a lot and promised each other that the friendship would always come first and we’d never lose it, so I’m glad that’s been the case.Given the opportunity, I’m not sure I could resist him, so I make sure that we only see each other in public or group settings. I feel like our story isn’t over, but I’m not sure how it will play out in the end. I just hope it doesn’t hurt him or his family." —Anonymous, North Carolina headtopics.com

2."It was Valentine's Day Eve, and I was hitting on this really cute guy at my favorite bar. He was shy but seemed really into it, and I asked him to come back to my place. On our way to my apartment, he told me he had a girlfriend living a few hours away, that they were in a rough patch, and that she had cheated on him. We ended up having really good sex and simultaneous orgasms. He lied to me about his name the next morning. I found out later, laughed at him, brought him home one more time, and that was it. I really enjoyed my time with him, although I could never be in a relationship with someone as dishonest. No regrets, though."

Oxygen / Getty Images"Initially, I made it clear that I wasn't expecting anything from him and offered for him to sleep on my couch, which he declined." —Anonymous, Québec3."I matched with a really cute guy named Dillon. We met for a beer and clicked right away! He lived in Colorado but worked for a large company opening a location near me, so he was in St. Louis for one year to make sure everything ran smoothly. A couple of weeks later, we were grabbing drinks, and I caught a glimpse of his ID. His name was NOT Dillon (not even his middle name). I asked him why his ID said ‘Stephen,’ and his face turned white. He scrambled to piece together some story about how ‘Dillon’ was his nickname from college. Things felt too weird, so I distanced myself until we lost touch. A year later, Instagram recommended that I add a friend from my contacts. It was his number but with a woman's name and face. I clicked on her profile and sure enough, it was his wife. They had been together for many years and had children together. I felt disgusting knowing that I was actively dating and sleeping with him while they were together."

Michael Prince / Getty Images"He would fly home almost every weekend, so we typically only saw each other early on weeknights. This was great for me because my weekends were usually busy. I didn't see that as a red flag.After a few dates, he invited me to his apartment. He had been in St. Louis for six months, and his apartment was basically empty. I suggested we watch a movie, and it was immediately clear that he had never set up his Apple TV — despite regularly texting back-and-forth with me about shows and movies he was watching ‘at his apartment.’ He obviously didn't know how to use an Apple TV or how to connect anything to his WiFi. He honestly acted as if he had never been in the apartment before. I gave him the benefit of the doubt because I knew it was his temporary residence.

When I found his wife on Instagram, I contemplated messaging her but decided to let her live in peace. It had been so long, I didn't have receipts to show. I would have stressed her out, and he would have gaslighted her into thinking I was a crazy person. He was careless, though. I'm positive that she knows his ways by now." —Anonymous, Missouri headtopics.com

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4."I was teaching abroad. He was an ex-pat working in that country. I was dining alone when he invited me to join him and his friends. It was immediate, undeniable chemistry. I figured it was going to be one hot, heavy fling. He was upfront about being married even though I didn’t ask. It didn’t matter. We were magnetic. We messaged each other all day and went deeper sexually than I ever thought possible. Each summer, I had him to myself as his family went home. A year in, he told me he loved me. Mutual, obviously. Keeping our secret was exciting, and so were we. It was magic for four years. But in 2020, it became impossible to make excuses for him to get out alone. Our summer together couldn’t happen. I was lonely and lost. Between work and slowly losing the man I believe is my soulmate, I had a depressive break and moved home. We still talked every day. Then his wife found out. He told me if I loved him, I wouldn’t contact him again. I was stunned but did as he asked."

Eloi_omella / Getty Images"We explored our adopted, sprawling city and each other — its hidden neighborhoods and eclectic cafes. It was DVD rooms and my tiny apartment or love hotels; decadent restaurants and dive bars. The constant language barrier made it seem like we were the only ones who understood each other; I still think there’s truth to that no matter where we were. I think it was easy to get carried away. Being so far from home, we became each other’s home. We were lovers and best friends.

The ending was quite tragic. He blocked me from all social media as an added bonus. And that was it. Looking back, I was curious and reckless, and he was thrilling. I’ve never had better sex, and the friendship that came with it was raw and real. Am I still torn to pieces? I’m not sure I can ever be sewn back together again at this point." —Anonymous, South Carolina

5."My therapist introduced me to the idea that one person — such as a significant other — cannot necessarily fulfil all needs. They might not be able to be our best friend, cook, lover, drinking buddy, lots of different things, that we need to be fully happy and satisfied. Since then, I’ve been open to the idea that whilst I’m happy with my husband, he may not fulfill my needs sexually, and I perhaps need greater compatibility from someone else. Two months ago, I started a relationship with a friend, who is also in a long-term relationship, with the goal being that we would meet fairly to have sex. We are insanely attracted to one another, and the chemistry and sex are wild. He allows me to explore a Dom/sub sexual dynamic that I’ve always wanted to pursue but have never been brave enough to experience with anyone else — even my husband." headtopics.com

Filippobacci / Getty Images"Within this, he makes me feel entirely safe and comfortable but also desirable and like a complete badass, which enables me to realize my deepest fantasies in a safe environment. I feel an energy and vivaciousness with him that I’ve never felt before. I feel like I am truly living my life for the first time in years.

I feel a freedom with him that can’t be achieved elsewhere in my life; a release from the daily stresses and mundaneness of work and family life. So whilst being the 'other person' isn’t morally right, I am able to satisfy several needs that are otherwise unfulfilled in my life." —Anonymous, Bedfordshire

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6."First off, I want to start off by saying that I am not responsible for anyone’s relationship. I know that’s not a popular opinion, but if someone is in a relationship, it is not my job to make sure they stay faithful — it is 100% on them. That being said, I don’t seek out individuals in relationships, however, I am currently involved with a man who has a serious, live-in girlfriend. We had been on and off for two years. We took a year break then started talking again. Little did I know, he had gotten with a girl. When I learned that, I was a little upset. But I was infatuated with this man, so I continued our relationship. I am so drawn to him, and we’ve had a six-year friendship now where we have 'dated' consistently for the last three years — and completely guilt-free at that."

"We talk every day, and I see him a couple of times a week. We don’t sneak around or anything, and, despite what someone might think, it’s really not a physical relationship. Of course, we’ve had sex, but mostly it’s emotional.He’s become my best friend, and I honestly don’t know what I’d do without him. I know we probably will never end up together, and I’m okay with that. I’m personally content with what we have. I love him, he loves me, and we maintain a healthy relationship all things considered.

He’s admitted that his real relationship is fine, and he’s not unhappy or anything, so it’s not even like he’s in a toxic relationship. We’re just drawn to each other and have gotten extremely close over the last six years. I don’t think either one of us wants to let that go. I’m sure this eventually will go south and won’t be enough for me anymore, but for now, I’m just enjoying what we have." —Anonymous, Unknown

7."I was with this man prior to becoming the other woman. We broke up and, months later, started up again. Everything was going well. He flew me out to where he was working — which was when I found out he was in another relationship. He was living with this woman. I ended up staying out of pure stupidity. It didn’t help that he was a master manipulator. You could imagine all the ways he was spinning this story. I felt bad, but, at the same time, I didn’t. The woman he was in a relationship with had also been with him prior. She knew what he was like — a cheater — so I rationalized it that way."

"I’m shitty for it, but, oh well. In the end, I contracted type-2 herpes, so you could say I got what was coming to me." —Anonymous, Texas8."After graduating college and backpacking Europe, I moved back in with my parents. I was looking for jobs and stupidly lonely. I found him on OKC. He'd messaged first. It was clear he was married and looking for something extra. I didn't respond seriously, but he was charming. I could see he was also lonely despite being ‘happily married.’ We texted and exchanged pictures daily through Snapchat. I told him my darkest, deepest secrets, and he'd be there when he could respond. He was a constant source of validation and attention for me for five years. He told me about his relationship and wife regularly. He deeply loved her and would never leave her but needed more. In the beginning, I told him that I'd only be physical with him if he didn’t have children or his wife wasn’t pregnant — which didn’t last long. From 2015-19, we only had sex five times. It’s been almost two years since he cut me off, and I’ve periodically checked his social media."

Nurphoto / NurPhoto via Getty Images"He never gave me his full name but gave me enough info for me to easily find him and his wife online. They were a gorgeous Pinterest-esque couple. He was the doctor, she was the nurse. They met at their small-town religious college and quickly got married. They genuinely looked like such a happy couple from social media.

We soon became good friends. We joked about how I was his ‘mistress’ and how we trusted each other to ‘never just disappear’ on one another. That was a constant conversation — about how sad I’d be if he just disappeared on me one day.He was there for me when my best friend died by suicide, when I dated and met new men, and even when my father was diagnosed with cancer. He even offered his specialized medical opinion about his prognosis. I knew of his wife’s miscarriage and the eventual birth of their two children. We were very different people, looking back, and he often felt more of a close friend than some married man I slept with a few times.

In late 2019, I logged on to find that his name had changed to some random letters and numbers with the little gray arrow. My heart sank since that was our only form of communication, but I deep down knew the time would come. I just always hoped there would be a final conversation and explanation.

I truthfully never wanted to take over or be with him. Sometimes, I felt weirdly close to his wife because I knew so much about her and her relationship struggles. Early on when we met, we often talked about how if his wife would have been cool with it, he’d enter a polyamorous relationship of sorts with me as a girlfriend because I understood his boundaries and never wanted anything more than that. Honestly, sometimes I wish I could have just had an open conversation with his wife but never felt it was my place." —Anonymous, Minnesota

9."I knew this man because he was in the same, albeit rather extended, friend circle as me. When we connected at a friend's wedding, he told me he was divorced. A few months later, after a couple of dates, I slept with him. In the morning, there was a knock at the door, but he very sweetly kissed my brow and told me to go back to sleep while he went downstairs to see who it was. I found out who it was a week or so later — when my phone rang. She ultimately asked to use my name on the divorce papers. I was so ashamed that I gave her all of my details."

Onfokus / Getty Images"I was not aware at all that I was the 'other woman'. I was absolutely gutted, betrayed, and felt like shit, a homewrecker, all of that. But I didn't know!I suppose there is some record of me on a divorce document detailing me as 'the other woman,' and I hate it." —

littleredshoes10."We were both married and miserable. It was exciting and gave me a new lease on life. I initially had no intentions of leaving my husband. My lover had tried to leave his wife several times. Because she tried to keep the kids from him, he'd always go back. Having an affair made me feel sexy and wanted which I badly needed. I had begged my then-husband to get counseling, but he refused. After two years of sleeping in separate rooms, I met my guy. Having an affair is also stressful. My children did not get the same amount of attention from me while I was having the affair as they did before. For that, I will never forgive myself. At first, saw it as a fling, but he fell in love. Of course, I felt guilty, and so did he. I didn’t feel guilty about his wife because she was a total bitch — from what I saw not what he said. I did feel guilty about my spouse because he wasn’t a bad guy, we were just miserable for many reasons, and he wasn’t willing to work on our marriage."

"An affair is all-consuming. It’s all you think about, it’s an addiction. Everyone knew, even our spouses. We weren’t very good at hiding it. I never made excuses. I knew it was wrong. My need was stronger than that knowledge. So was his.We saw each other every day for two years. After a year, we started talking about leaving our spouses. We’ve been married 16 years, now. The rough part came after we left our spouses. My side wasn’t too bad because my ex wasn’t a crazy nut case; his was. She had also cheated but acted like she was a victim. She did everything possible to be sure her kids hate us. We were careful not to speak badly of her or even defend ourselves because we knew we had chosen to leave. It’s taken a long time, but eventually, they saw I wasn’t the devil and that we have a good marriage.

Would I do it again? No. I’d leave before I got involved in another relationship. Mainly because of the kids. They ended up being in the middle and missed out on a lot of time with their dad. It’s hard for me to be sympathetic to their mom because she used her kids to hurt their dad while she was behaving very badly herself. But I definitely regret the hurt the kids had to deal with and the tug of war.

My kids were not treated very well either because my now husband felt guilty and wasn’t a very good stepdad for the first six or seven years. It’s taken me a long time to forgive myself. I have apologized to the kids and even to his ex for the hurt we caused. She’s remarried but is still bitter. My ex and my now-husband now work together and have a very cordial relationship. All the kids are grown now and doing well. I have been very honest about the affair and my regrets with them all. While I am very happily married, I’ll always wish we had done things the right way." —Anonymous, Louisana

11."I’m the bad guy. I hooked up with a friend that I had a crush on for a really long — like 15 years long — time. They were in a really unhappy marriage. I had gotten out of a long, bad relationship not long before this happened, so I really was not looking for a relationship. We got together to have drinks and commiserate. There is a lot more to the story, but I don’t want to make it seem like I’m trying to justify what happened. Suffice it to say, sometimes people just pick the wrong person. I’m aware that it’s a crappy thing to do and a crappy way to end up with someone that I know is my soulmate, but people don't always do things 'the right way,' and I think more people need to admit that."

Skynesher / Getty Images"My spouse’s ex remarried very soon after their split, and they’re doing well so feel free to feel happy for them if you like. If 'once a cheater, always a cheater' is true, and my spouse cheats on me, it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve been cheated on. I’m not saying I would like it, but I lived through it before with a different partner, and it wasn’t even kind of the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.

Life isn’t black and white. Either way, I did a bad thing. I’m not a hero but, I promise, I’m really not a villain either. Cut to 10 years later, we’ve been married for years, and we’re very much in love." —regularhumanbartender12."I was recovering from a horrible and unexpected breakup, and I rebounded with a friend after drinks one night. I knew he had a girlfriend but justified it by telling myself that no one in our friend group likes her, including my friend who was with her."

"We continued hooking up for years until he moved her into his house and things got more serious between them. That was two years ago, and he still asks to hook up." —ashleyh4ad7f326313."I knew he had a girlfriend, but every time he was around me, he said he was unhappy. It was just an attraction at first. We had a class together at community college. It was a program that people of all ages attended, so he was five years older than me. We hung out like friends, at first. It was flirty. He would tell me I was beautiful. I was definitely not used to hearing that, so I melted into the palm of his hand. One day, he kissed me, and once the line was crossed, that was it. I became the other woman. I never expected him to leave her and never even asked. I don’t really know why I did it. I think it felt nice to be wanted so much — to have someone telling you all the right things that it was easy to forget he had a girlfriend at all."

Klaus Vedfelt / Getty Images"It didn’t last long, but it felt like forever. There was way too much drama to always be second and not have the full attention of the person you like. That was also the problem, I think, I began to fall for him too much. In the end, he chose his girlfriend and married her.

I was the one who ended it because I realized it just wasn’t worth it. I also realized he was getting his cake and eating it, too, with no consequences, and I no longer wanted to be part of that situation.I found actual love not too long after, and I’ve been happily married for eight years. My husband tells me how much I mean to him daily, and he’s 100% always there for me." —

adriana120814."I lived in a small town while going to school, and I hit it off with a guy at work. We flirted quite a bit, but that was the extent of it. One day, he came in and told me a sob story about how his ex-fiancée (that I didn’t know about) up and moved to Texas, leaving him with their month-old baby and no help. We ended up dating for about six months. We’d get together about once a week — he’d spend the night when 'his mom' was able to watch the baby. Then, I got a message on Facebook from an obviously fake account asking if I knew he was engaged. I asked him about it, and he denied it up one side and down the other. I gave him the benefit of the doubt until a few weeks later. His phone alarm kept going off one morning, and he wasn’t waking up for it. I reached over to turn it off, and saw a bunch of messages from"WIFEY❤️," saying how much she loved him, how sorry she was that they got in such a bad fight, and couldn’t she please just come home?"

David Papazian / Getty ImagesI woke him up and demanded answers. He kept sputtering explanations and denying everything, so I walked into my bathroom to cool off before I did something I’d regret — like punching him. When I got out, he had literally run away from the conversation. My front door was wide open and everything!

His fiancée ended up reaching out to me, and we actually had a really healthy talk. I had the chance to apologize and tell her I had no idea she was still in the picture, that I’m absolutely not the homewrecker/'other woman' type, and that I felt AWFUL.

I got to tell her my side, which doesn’t always happen. I’m very thankful she not only talked to me but believed me. It helped ease some of the guilt and shame. I hate that he put me in that position! Last I heard, she took him back and they had another kid. Yikes." —

kareyhoke15."We worked together and were really close friends. He’d vent to me about his fiancée, and I’d vent about my divorce. I felt like I could tell him everything. I trusted him, and he trusted me. We'd hang out after work and text 24/7. One day, when we were done shopping, he told me if I got the answer right to a question he asked, he’d do whatever I wanted. I got it right and said I wanted a hug and kiss on the cheek. He hugged me, and we got in the car. When he kissed my cheek, I turned around and kissed him. I wasn’t planning to do that, it all just kind of happened. When we stopped kissing, I started having a panic attack and told him I was so sorry. I told him that couldn’t happen again. He told me he couldn’t stop thinking about the kiss and that he was still daydreaming about it on his way home. I continued talking to him, and we got into a relationship. After it got sexual, I tried to end it. Before I had the chance, he ended it with me."

Svetikd / Getty Images"We had so much in common I felt like he was my twin. Everyone we worked with said we were the girl/boy version of each other. We’d think the same and used to get freaked out by how alike we were. Before anything happened, he was like a gay best friend — he was unavailable and couldn’t hit on me. I was so happy to finally have a friendship. When we started developing feelings for each other, we never said anything.

Once we got together, he made me feel beautiful and loved. I hadn’t felt like that in years. Originally, I tried to end it multiple times because I knew I was vulnerable and trying to protect myself. I didn’t want to ruin his family, but he was very persistent. I fell for him hard.

He wanted to remain friends after he ended things, but I couldn’t do that after everything we had done. I was completely heartbroken. Not only was I the other woman, but I fell so in love with him. He kept trying to talk to me at work. I couldn’t work there anymore. I couldn’t stand seeing him knowing what I had done. I had to quit. To this day, it still hurts and will probably haunt me for the rest of my life." —Anonymous, California

16."We met at the gym and had a really instant connection. I was aware that he was in a relationship, but we had really excellent chemistry. I did not pursue him in any way, but he got my number under the ruse of having a workout session and him 'coaching me.' From there, texting turned into post-workout smoothies and pre-work coffees, and then he kissed me. He made me feel desired and sexy. At first, I was almost empowered like, 'Wow, he is willing to risk so much to be with me.' It was a real confidence boost. But as weeks turned into months and then into a year, my level of self-worth completely plummeted. Whereas it started off feeling like forbidden love, it ended with me feeling incredibly cheap. I internalized that I’m not the woman worth marrying and sharing a life with — I’m the woman for quickies in the car and cheap motel rooms, waking up alone."

Vgajic / Getty Images"I ended things when I saw on social media he had gotten engaged. His post said, 'I love you with every inch of my heart,' and all I could think was that he certainly wasn’t loving her with every inch of himself when he was inside me the night before. I’ve never gotten the nerve to tell his fiancée.” —Anonymous, Virginia

17."My best friend had a neighbor. I'd see him take care of his special needs dog, and it'd make me melt. He was friendly, attractive, and nice. He also happened to be in a stale, miserable relationship with a woman and her child. She was extremely controlling of him. One night, we got to talking at a block party and something sparked. It sounds stupid, but there was this electric feeling between us. We became friends, and we texted and talked all day long (we kept it respectful). This continued for a few years. Finally, one summer, he admitted he'd been stuck in a relationship with a person he hasn't loved in a while. We talked about how we fell in love with each other that night years ago and hooked up. He broke up with her the next day. The following week, I moved in. I have no regrets about being the other woman. It may look bad or messy on the outside, but, as the saying goes, the heart wants what the heart wants."

Thomas Barwick / Getty Images"Now, six years later, we have a beautiful three-year-old daughter and are happy." —Anonymous, Pennsylvania Read more: BuzzFeed »

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