Invisible to most, but there nonetheless, my antagonist challenges me when I read or write, in daily conversation, or when I try to give someone my undivided attention. When my foe gains ground, my attention is often scattered, and my brain slips into overdrive – assessing, processing, thinking, thinking about thinking, and fighting to be present and engaged with others.
It is difficult to convey, especially to the individual without ADHD, just how trying my symptoms can be at times. Imagine sitting in a room full of people all talking at once. Now, try to zero in on one of the many lively conversations. Can you? Let’s assume that, after much effort, you can. Suddenly, for whatever reason, you can no longer focus on that solitary conversation. Multiple conversations begin desperately vying for your attention. The noise, volume, and chatter are just too much.
Because I must pay close attention to what people say, words exert a powerful hold over me. In conversation, in passing, in my surroundings – every word I hear spawns others.